the bitter sweet taste in my mouth
the yearning to know
to let be confusion
decease and blow away from me
cornered in my thoughts,
peirced by their eyes.
I have yet to find a safe place
a peaceful ambition of serenity.
I cannot be left alone..
they fear the worst of myself,
to inflict injury towards my own body.
I'm trapped,
and I know the next step.
If I move one muscle,
they'll tie me down with thick straps,
and leave me in a sponge with a door.
They would care,I know they would.
I just don't know where the trust has gone..
The splinters from the old door to my room..
where I lay curled up on the floor.
My bedroom is full of books and paintings.
All you can see is piled up stacks of books,of all kinds.
the floor is there,but the wall,your vision only permits you to see so much.
they know I'm not troubled..they do.I know they do.
Why would I harm myself?
where has it come from?
the thought has never entered my mind.
An inigma..thats it..
they stare,and sob as I turn away.
Whats happened?
What has turned me this way?
A creature..of mortality..yes,human.
But something eles,too.
I wish They could see.
I wish they would understand.
I wish I would see.I wish I would understand.