It has become harder for me to think about her than I ever thought it would

She is gone and I've forgiven her but it is still hard not to be mad anymore

I love her and she'll be in my heart, my life forever but the pain it brings me to think about her-about them drives me insane

I want to make it stop altogether,end everything right now,this day, this exact moment...but I can't

He is the reason she is gone-dead I can't stand him
the thought of what I'd do to him if I saw him makes me relieved-in a way

This all would have been avoided if she'd stay with us, her family
I begged her not to go, not to bring us, but she still wouldn't listen

And look what it's gotten us into...
Nothing but sorrow,hurt,regret,and loneliness

I should have tried harder