This Christmas, in a bustling, pretentious coffee shop in Central London, I was inspired to write this piece. The food had just arrived, minimalist like the hipster waiters that lounged around the decadent, faux-parisian interior. My godmother, an bubbly woman with hair to match, was effervescing about her Christmas. She described playing 'Desert Island Discs' with her parents, nicknamed the 'Half-deads'. The adults around the table took lengthy turns chronicling the five songs they would want on endless loops for eternity. When it was finally my turn, my mother swiveled round to face me. She told me that I couldn't possibly join in because I didn't have enough life experiences. I kept quiet but I have decided to prove her wrong. Here goes.

1. Just the way you are- Bruno Mars
Being the insecure preteen which I was, in the strains of my first 'relationship', this was our song. Seeing myself as fat or hating my hair, I asked you about my flaws sure you would confirm them. Instead, you told me I was beautiful, flawless, perfect. No boy had ever called me that or even noticed me among the prettier faces in the crowd. You were the one who helped me love myself and when I listen to this song I am reminded of the boy who helped me gain my confidence.

2. Cooler than me- Mike Posner
Who knows the indie films were the college kids describe all the 'crazy' things they did? This was my moment. This song was the soundtrack to the time we ran down the hill, holding hands, whooping wildly, not caring who we woke up. We dipped out feet in the swimming pool and ran from the night guard who chased us half-heartdely. Standing on the roof, we felt invincible. And when I lay on your chest for what seemed like hours talking and watching the stars, I felt safe.

3. For the first time- The Script
Pain is a big a part of us as happiness. I thought the pain would kill me when we just... ended. It was a text. It wasn't rude. You didn't have someone else. I think we should break up. I didn't fight for you. I just said 'Cool' and it was done. Why didn't I try to stop you? Heartbroken, I needed to stop my thoughts. I grabbed my headphones desperately and jammed them into my ears. Finding the best song out of my new downloads, I pressed the repeat button. Listening to this song, gave me solace that somewhere you were doing the same thing. That you weren't just content with being done.

4. Summer Paradise- Simple Plan
Remember those hot days we used to share like mints? We thought they would never end. As the plane took off into the sun, leaving you behind, this song seemed to perfectly capture my feelings. Every lyric felt woven into my heart. I wished I was sitting by the window so I could have had my 'looking-out-the-window-mournfully' movie moment. I suppose that if it were a movie, you would have found a way to stop me from leaving and pulled me in for one last kiss... But the plane didn't stop, you didn't care and I just left.

5. Love and memories- OAR
Sitting in my new school, music was the only connection to the life I had left behind. Songs held the memories I tried desperately to remember. I clung to the sun tan lotion coated memories bathed in brilliant sunlight. The lyrics were my treasure chest. My ew favorite class, Biology and I put in my earbuds to tune out. But from behind me, I heard the new you. He asked me to take out my headphones and asked me what I was listening to. I replied and he smiled at me. My heart lept. In that moment, I began to forget you. You started to fade from my memories like the summer turning to autumn. Nothing has happened between me and him yet because I only felt that feeling with you. I am scared I can never feel it again and its all your fault. You stole me and then you carelessly broke me.

Would I give up these memories to make new ones? Not a chance. Post below in the comments your desert island discs.