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Dreams and Somedays

July 28, 2021
By SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
200 articles 23 photos 1053 comments

Favorite Quote:
"It Will Be Good." (complicated semi-spiritual emotional story.)

"Upon his bench the pieces lay
As if an artwork on display
Of gears and hands
And wire-thin bands
That glisten in dim candle play." -Janice T., Clockwork[love that poem, dont know why, im not steampunk]


Dreams are what make us who we are. But mine is a curse. My dream lies in my affliction, in the someday. The someday that consumes me when I am at my lowest, saddest. The someday that lies to me and poisons my thought and pushes me for nothing when I have nothing left.

The someday is what I cling to. It destroys me. I hate it, I love it, I fear it. But ultimately, there's nothing I can do. I can't rid myself of it. I can't accept it. Maybe if I were to be free of it, I would fade away into nothingness. It's become my identity. 

If my dreams are in someday, I hate them. If dreams make us who we are, then I am nothing. I’m a shell. Worst, I guess I've accepted that. I don't believe in the dreams, or hope, or someday. All I can believe is never. But maybe someday...


The author's comments:

Of course I believe in God. this is speaking in relativity.

I'm sorry to say this is true. and about me. sorta like 'the dance' if it were real. 

maybe someday this wont be true...


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on Aug. 13 2021 at 8:20 pm
SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
200 articles 23 photos 1053 comments

Favorite Quote:
"It Will Be Good." (complicated semi-spiritual emotional story.)

"Upon his bench the pieces lay
As if an artwork on display
Of gears and hands
And wire-thin bands
That glisten in dim candle play." -Janice T., Clockwork[love that poem, dont know why, im not steampunk]

yeah, i just have so many plans and dreams and stuff and i feel stuck. im so sad and lonly where i am, and i keep promising myself. someday ill be happy,m someday iplll have friends(irl), someday someday someday. it feels like a lie now. s0o broken. i hate it, but i cant escape it. its my promise, my addiction, my enemy, my love. litrally everything in m poem called addiction.

Lydiaq ELITE said...
on Aug. 6 2021 at 2:37 pm
Lydiaq ELITE, Somonauk, Illinois
142 articles 42 photos 1009 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Let the disappointments pass
Let the laughter fill your glass
Let your illusions last until they shatter.
Whatever you might hope to find
Among the thoughts that crowd your mind
There won't be many that ever really matter.
But take good care of your mother
And remember to be kind
When the pain of another will serve you to remind."
--Jackson Browne

Even the best of us feel this way. And when we are morbidly introspective on dark nights alone in bed, yes, it does seem kinda true.

LKQgirl GOLD said...
on Aug. 6 2021 at 2:30 pm
LKQgirl GOLD, Somonauk, Illinois
17 articles 17 photos 63 comments

Favorite Quote:
MUH HAH HAH HAH!

(whatever it is, you can tell about it and I can try to help if that's ok with you.)

LKQgirl GOLD said...
on Aug. 6 2021 at 2:24 pm
LKQgirl GOLD, Somonauk, Illinois
17 articles 17 photos 63 comments

Favorite Quote:
MUH HAH HAH HAH!

I saw you posted this exact same piece in a comment once. We are all concerned about you dwelling in this darkness of thoughts, and we aren't exactly sure what you mean.