To: the only person that can crush me, but means everything to me at the same time,
I would give you the world and more, but you played with my emotions one too many times. We were perfect together, at first, I thought you liked me. But you ended it shortly after we became something. Did you mean to hurt me, because you did. I cried for hours thinking everything was my fault. I was the one with the problem. Weeks went by and we didn’t talk at all. Then you wanted me back, and I wanted you to. For the first time ever, I could be completely myself around someone. That someone was you. I took you back instantly, believing every lie you fed to me. You told me you always wanted to be with me. I fell in love with you, hard. You told me you loved me and I felt like the luckiest girl in the whole world. I was clearly wrong.
Things were different this time around. You were different. You didn’t care anymore, and it showed. I started to doubt us. You stopped texting me and I was too scared, angry and confused to text you first. If you really loved me you would text me first, right? Well, after a week or so, I texted you to see what was going on. I asked if you still wanted to be with me and not knowing you didn’t care at all, you told me. You also told me that you didn’t love me and never did because you were “incapable of loving someone.” How could someone who made me so happy and meant so much to me say that?
After you crushed me in ways I never thought were possible, we didn’t talk for months. But now you tell me that you’ve changed. But I see you’ve moved on and you and your girlfriend are clearly happy together. Yet you try to talk to me all the time. Why is that? Do you want me to always think about you, because I do. Every day, all the time, I hate it. It hurts that you can move on, but I can’t.
You confuse me when you try to talk to me. Do you want me back? Did you ever try to talk to other girls when we were together?
All I know is that you have taught me many things. For one, I will never let someone break my heart like you did. You also taught me I am able to love someone with every part of me, because that is how I felt about you. I miss everything we had together and I still love you. I will always love you. But I am stronger now, and I will not let you hurt me anymore. I will find someone who will love me the way I loved you.