“The sky is brightest at 4:23 a.m.”

“How do you know that?”

“I’m up late enough to see it.”

“Huh. What else do you know?”

“I know that music starts to sound funny. I kept hearing ‘Freddy, Freddy, Freddy’ but it was just the drums. I know that you should take small steps when you haven’t gotten a lot of sleep. One stride and you tumble over. You know that quiet ringing sound when the room is silent? I know too much about it. I know the loneliness of being awake and how when the second person wakes up it melts the lonely away. But you always end of passing out once they’re up. I know that mini heart attack you get when you see something out of the corner of your eye and you think it’s a killer but it ends up being something on the table. I know how big the moon can get and how bright the stars shine. And the one thing I know for sure is that thought you get when you think of that person who gets your heart beating all fast and you say to yourself ‘I’ve got it bad’. And how when your alone you have a goofy smile on your face because in your mind they are in the house with you looking up at the sky at 4:23 to see the moon light up the sky. The one thing I wish I didn’t know is that twinge of sadness that makes your goofy smile twitch. It’s knowing that they will never be there with you. You don’t cry, did that before 3:15. And in that sadness you resigning yourself to quietly suffer when they are round. You think “What good am I? You know it’s all in your head but, it still hurts. But you suffer willingly because there is hope around 4:23. Then willingness becomes happiness and you think about how great they are and how you never thought you would meet or need someone like them. Then you’re back where you started, thinking about them with your chest feeling like it’s full of feathers. So, in a way, these moments alone are the best times of your life because you know that in these moments, and only in these moments, that they belong to you. And that is all you want to know.”