Today I had an argument that was dramatic and serious with my boyfriend. It was his fault and I felt bad, like I did something wrong. It’s not fair, it’s his fault not mine! But he is such a sweet heart. I love how he chews gum, that’s freaky but true. He makes me mad, but he’s so cute when he stares at me with those intense looking eyes. I can’t stop thinking about this, I feel so lost, but he deserves me treating him like crap. I feel that he is hiding something from me, I don’t know what it is though, and I have a bad feeling in my stomach. It feels like when I’m about to ride a scary ride at the amusement park. Every day we talk on the phone, and yesterday night he didn’t call me. Not one call or text, nothing!
Should I be making a big deal about this? Should I say something about it? What if he thinks I’m over reacting? Well I know I’m not because it really hurts, I feel heartbroken over this. A day has passed and I’m freaking out, I don’t know what to do, I feel like slapping someone in the face. I feel that if I don’t make a big deal out of this, I’m going to go repeat the last relationship I had, and I don’t want that. I’m done with immature guys. If he doesn’t care, why should I? Then again I love him so much I can’t let him go.
What if he is cheating on me? That’s why he didn’t call me or send me text messages. I bet he is with another girl somewhere, I hate him so much, how he could do this to me!? I’m so lost I don’t know what to do without him. I feel that my world is going to end if I’m not with him. For the past couple weeks that we have been dating I fell completely in love with him. Yeah, maybe it has been two in a half weeks of knowing him, but I know that he is the one. I don’t care what anyone says.
Why is he so darn cute? We are so perfect for each other why didn’t he call me yesterday? I’m so depressed, did he stop loving me!? Whatever, I don’t care anymore I can find someone else, but I don’t want anyone else, I want him. How can he break my heart like this? Is he heartless? Why is he doing this? He could have called me at least for one minute or something I can’t believe he doesn’t love me anymore. Oh my gosh, I got a text from him! He’s apologizing to me, he was tired and fell asleep early. I knew he still loved me, but what if he’s lying? I hate this situation, why can’t he just say the truth, then again maybe he is saying the truth.