I think of a time when everything was just fun and loving and safe. That time is a blur now. I cry and think back to the days we loved each other with our whole heart, when I trusted you with my whole heart and soul, when I could look into your eyes and see a bright future, when I could feel your touch and I knew it was real. Those days aren’t here anymore and I know it wasn’t your fault that you quit, that you gave up, that you lost the love for me. I hear your name in my head again and again, and I just cry because I didn’t tell you how I really felt and how much I really loved you. I look back at the good days, when we both had fun with each other but know I just find myself hating you, regretting caring and loving you, wishing I never cried a single tear for you. But they still come down; flowing down my cheek, stinging with pain; I close my eyes and I just think, what went wrong with us, what happened to our laughter, what happened with those phone calls that never come anymore, what happened to those flirty and caring texts, what happened to our love?. I told myself that I would never care as much for you because I knew I would fall for you hard. I was right. Inside my heart is cracked, my heart is asking for your love again. My heart is asking for you to never lose what we had, to never forget what we had, to never quit on a girl that loved you as much as I did. Inside im confused and thinking back to what went wrong. Inside im not the same, im different then before because you left me with no explanation. My heart is cracked of where you left it. I gave you my whole heart, all my love and you just ignored, rejected.

What happened to us? What happened to our love for another? What happened to you? Im confused right now because you were so lively and happy, but lately you’ve been in denial and it’s breaking me inside to see you like this. It hurts to see you not care the way I did to you. And sadly I’ve lost my love for you, I don’t know how I can love you when you don’t love me back, I don’t understand why I just figured you out. Your not the guy I first met, the one who worried about his friends, the one who opened his whole heart to the person he cared for, the person that cared about me when I was in pain or just not feeling myself. I was always there for you, I always was a good friend to you; I tried so much to make you happy when the only thing you wanted to do was cry; but your not yourself anymore and im just done trying to make you feel better when you don’t care about me the way I do. It frustrates me that I just figured out that you never loved me, never cared about me, never had your trust, never caught your eye, never was your friend, never was part of your life. I was just the girl that you wanted to talk to because you needed help with girl problems, or when you were bored, or just to have a “new experience” with. I cry now because I’ve wasted my time with you, I can’t tell you that I hate you, because that would be a lie; you opened my eyes and Im thankful and lucky that I met and got to know you. Im happy that the months we talked to each other went the way it did, the days we talked on the phone and I didn’t want to hang up, the days I saw texts on my phone from you and I answered with a smile, the days I saw you in public and I couldn’t breathe because I was surrounded by all your positive energy. The days I was mad at you and you told me that you were sorry and I actually felt it, the days I cried on my bed all night because you don’t know how I really feel about you; and when I woke up I found myself depressed, my pillow wet &stained with my pointless tears, my eyes all swollen with the pain I have inside my heart and soul that I still cant repair. Those days have disappeared but now and then I find myself crying and I think to myself why am I crying? , The tears don’t stop and I don’t let them stop, some days I ask myself if I have enough tears in me to let out.