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Loving you is like wanting death Ep. 1

August 27, 2009
By iPonder GOLD, Elk Grove, California
iPonder GOLD, Elk Grove, California
14 articles 0 photos 20 comments

Favorite Quote:
The bad things happen first,then the good things, then more bad things, then more good things: God helps us through the bad things so we can enjoy the good ones. :)


She tried to strike him with her bare fleshed hand. He grabbed it in mid air. "Would you like to try again?" he asked with a dark smirk across his face. Yes! She screamed within herself. She hated him and everything he did to her. She loved him but hated everything about him. He killed her hope of her father coming back to her. She looked away from the hard-chisseled face that captured her in such a trance many times before. "He will come back. He loves me, which is more than what I can say about you!" I shifted away from him. He crossed his arms and began to sigh. He leaned on the fireplace as i sat down on the piano in the middle of the living room. I shuffled through the sheet music and found a symphony from Beethoven's 3rd. I began to play. my fingers gently touching the ancient piece. I could feel his eyes burning a hole through my head. He who stole me away in the middle of the night just to tell me that my father's return was hopeless and just a fairytale. Yes, I hated him. I suddenly didnt feel the urge to play anymore and finished the symphony with my own made up tune. I gently closed the piano and walked to the door to exit this treacherous place he was trying to keep me captive in. He glided in front of the door and leaned on the handle. His face was now serious and stricken with frustration. "For the last time your not going anywhere. So sit now." he brushed his hand through his black hair and lowered his eyes at me. "Move." I said in a husk voice. It was five in the morning i had no time for this. He smiled well more of a sinical smile then a happy-go-lucky one. Jackass. "Make me." He crossed his arms back in place and began to hum the same tune i played a minmute ago. "You arrogant-" I stopped myself. "Fine Ill move you." I spoke in a low whisper. His eyes fluttered as I moved closer to him. His breath and mine lingered together as we breathed in eachothers scent. I skimmed my lips across his. He backed up. Yeah wasnt expecting that one now were you. I kept repeating that in my head. I had the control not him. He lowered his arms and then grabbed me by the waist pulling me closer to him. His rock solid chest against mine. He bit my lower lip and then devoured my lips with a need that he must have been holding back for all this time. It was our first but not our last kiss.


The author's comments:
I enjoy listening to deep and loud hard rock and love techno and alternative. Speaking as one of MANY girls who wear their hearts on their sleeves, I try to channel my feelings for a person in words, which turns into poems.

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iPonder GOLD said...
on Mar. 26 2016 at 9:36 am
iPonder GOLD, Elk Grove, California
14 articles 0 photos 20 comments

Favorite Quote:
The bad things happen first,then the good things, then more bad things, then more good things: God helps us through the bad things so we can enjoy the good ones. :)

Hey everyone! Wow, uhm, it's wierd to come back and look at the stuff I use to write. It was fun reading it all again. I have not stopped writing. Just stopped sharing. So Ill get my pieces together. Its crazy to go from writing thid at the age of 14 and writing now. I'm in college now and I am reading your comments with joy and hope that you like my new work. Thanks again for the comments and love.

Jea.Lively said...
on Nov. 13 2013 at 12:28 am
Jea.Lively, Sacramento, California
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Favorite Quote:
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass; it's about learning to dance in the rain.

Some of my writing is similar to yours in the aspect of unanswered questions, so I understand that is how it is meant to be. This is a really good piece.

on Jul. 9 2012 at 9:20 pm
polar-icecap DIAMOND, Sioux Falls, South Dakota
57 articles 20 photos 14 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Angels don't even come close to you!"

 I love your attentiveness to description. I would love more backround information, but I totally want to hear more. I'm more of a sad story writer, so it's nice to hear a perspective different from my own. And the fact that you are such a talented writer makes the experience even more enjoyable! :D Keep writing

on Jul. 9 2012 at 4:35 pm
CelestaCuffrig GOLD, Loveland, Colorado
11 articles 1 photo 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Inspiration is only as enlightening as you are open to it."

Wishing for more background and answers but I guess that's how it goes with some stories! I love the tension between the two in this piece. So many emotions. So many levels of hate, love, lust. Check out my writing, pretty please? Ha, and VERY WELL DONE.

on May. 26 2012 at 8:03 pm
Cierra032597 SILVER, Tukwila, Washington
7 articles 0 photos 2 comments

Favorite Quote:
<Always the beautiful answer who asks a more beautiful question.> EE Cummings

I want more. I am a big fan of romance books and I would totally want to read this one. Amazing. :)

on Apr. 12 2012 at 12:26 pm
A.M.Blackwood BRONZE, Hobbiton, Utah
2 articles 0 photos 13 comments

Favorite Quote:
"This is the type of arrant pedantry up with which I will not put."

A little confusing, but very intriguing. I definitely want to know more.

on Apr. 12 2012 at 12:26 pm
A.M.Blackwood BRONZE, Hobbiton, Utah
2 articles 0 photos 13 comments

Favorite Quote:
"This is the type of arrant pedantry up with which I will not put."

A little confusing, but very intriguing. I definitely want to know more.

on Mar. 21 2012 at 10:37 pm
MiaUnwritten GOLD, West Palm Beach, Florida
11 articles 0 photos 31 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Let the eyes seek what the mind cannot<br /> Let the eyes judge what the mind cannot<br /> Let the eyes believe what the mind failed to&quot;

I love your short story. Great writer

on Mar. 21 2012 at 2:53 pm
Yea that's right

on Feb. 28 2012 at 8:31 pm
kimani grandy SILVER, Boston, Massachusetts
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That was unbelievable. I never knew i short story could be so seductive.... i really loved it your a great writter keep it upp !... i look foward to finding a prt.2 ;) 

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on Feb. 6 2012 at 2:39 pm
Katzhascats BRONZE, Wukesha, Wisconsin
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;Don&#039;t waste these precious moments&quot; ;) -Formanator

I liked the way the short story was written. It was written in a way that pulled me into the story. :)

on Feb. 6 2012 at 11:21 am
assassin BRONZE, Waukesha, Wisconsin
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ummmm, great description but kinda cheesy

Mescudi said...
on Feb. 6 2012 at 9:46 am
Mescudi, Waukesha, Wisconsin
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Wow This is Very good. Please Make lots more.

Slafyg BRONZE said...
on Feb. 6 2012 at 9:40 am
Slafyg BRONZE, Waukesha, Wisconsin
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Good starter. Nice flow.

on Jan. 27 2012 at 8:42 pm
Iggy_Fang112 BRONZE, Daytona Beach, Florida
2 articles 0 photos 20 comments

Favorite Quote:
Right now I&#039;m having amnesia and deja vu at the same time. I think I&#039;ve forgotten this before.<br /> <br /> And<br /> <br /> Pain is inevitable; Suffering is optional

O_O SO AWESOME!!!! plz write lots more

on Jan. 15 2012 at 6:16 pm
BrilliantInnocence SILVER, Edina, Minnesota
9 articles 4 photos 15 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot; I&#039;m not perfect, I&#039;m perfectly flawed,&quot; Amy Lee<br /> &ldquo;Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary.&quot; -Gerard Way

Thats amazing! I love this! MORE!!!

on Jan. 15 2012 at 5:45 pm
Writer_Jordan GOLD, Ellicott City, Maryland
15 articles 0 photos 182 comments

Favorite Quote:
All that is gold does not glitter,<br /> Not all those who wander are lost;<br /> The old that is strong does not wither,<br /> Deep roots are not reached by the frost.<br /> From the ashes a fire shall be woken,<br /> A light from the shadows shall spring;<br /> Renewed shall be blade that was broken,<br /> The crownless again shall be king.

MORE! I loved it!

on Jan. 9 2012 at 3:45 pm
Goddess PLATINUM, Connellsville, Pennsylvania
27 articles 0 photos 73 comments

Favorite Quote:
&ldquo;Dream as if you&#039;ll live forever, live as if you&#039;ll die today.&rdquo;

WOW!!! PLEASE WRITE PART 2!! I'D LIKE TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS NEXT. i love it so far.

on Dec. 24 2011 at 3:50 pm
Pinkslip BRONZE, GreasersRule, Oklahoma
3 articles 0 photos 16 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Parents aren&#039;t interested in justice, but peace and quiet,&quot;<br /> -Bill Cosby

THERE IS NO PART 2!!! I wanna read the rest!!!! :) THis was AWESOME!