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My Drug

June 13, 2009
By MellowLellow BRONZE, Glendale, California
MellowLellow BRONZE, Glendale, California
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You are my drug. You are my anti-drug. You are better than drugs. You completely intoxicate me. You poison me. You’re infatuating. I can’t stop thinking about you. I think I am obsessed with you. No, I know I am. Nothing else fills my mind but you. I swear I go through withdrawal symptoms when you are not here. My body aches to feel you close to me. My eyes constantly scan where I am for you. My ears strain to hear your voice. How can I possibly survive without you here? You are bad for me. So very, very bad. Yet I keep running back for more. I want nothing more from life than for you to spend the entire time with me. Could it be destiny I see? I don’t know. I just know that I have never felt this way before. Just the thought of you spreads through my body like a fever. I’m sick with you. So why is it that it seems I can never sate this thirst? I drink you in and I am left dry and begging for more. I feel like I am going crazy. I can’t sleep at night. I can’t concentrate on anything. I can’t even sit still. What have you done to me? You have bewitched me. I yearn for you night and day, and yet I am never satisfied. This feeling frustrates me to the point of tears. Will I ever be fully satisfied? Will I ever be able to get over you? I don’t believe so. I have become an addict. Once an addict, always an addict. No matter what treatment, or how long I go without you; I will forever be a slave to you.

The author's comments:
This is a short piece I did for my comp journal, explaining the shortness of this entry.

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on Mar. 12 2012 at 7:59 pm
AddisonP. BRONZE, Fairfield, Connecticut
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I feel this way about *sighs* Tyler. He probably doesn't care about me though... After I said that I don't care about sports he probably thinks I'm "that idiot girl"

on Jan. 25 2011 at 7:06 pm
Kenona500 BRONZE, Minot, Maine
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Favorite Quote:
"That's the thing about faith. If you don't have it you can't understand it. And if you do, no explanation is necessary."-Kira Nerys, in Star Trek: Deep Space Nine.

I appreciate your gift with words. It spelled out what I had/have been going through with my current love interest. I broke up with him because I couldn't control myself when I was around him. And now I find that I'm still not over him. I hope that a situation such as this isn't what inspired you to write this. If it is, I feel your pain.

on Dec. 6 2010 at 10:10 pm
xBaByGiRrL22x PLATINUM, Pearl River, New York
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Favorite Quote:
"The goal isn't to live forever, but create something that will."
"If you wanna go, baby let's go; if you wanna rock, I'm ready to roll.''
"No one ever said it'd be easy. They just said it'd be worth it." <3

i agree. i can completely relate. its actually kinda sad how much:/

skisoul96 GOLD said...
on Nov. 23 2010 at 12:55 pm
skisoul96 GOLD, Flushing, New York
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Favorite Quote:
Don't worry about the world coming to an end today
its already tomorrow in Australia.

sooooooooooooo real. I alwaysh ave that feeling, sittingi n class and every word the teacher says goes right out the other ear cuz I can't stop thinking about HIM. I find myself writing stupid poems without even thinking. This piece shows me I'm not the only crazy out there.

kimmabug said...
on Oct. 23 2010 at 1:46 pm
wow that reminds me of what im goin through right now

on Jan. 10 2010 at 12:25 am
weirdonpurpose SILVER, Georgetown, Texas
6 articles 12 photos 55 comments

Favorite Quote:
art is happening

i envy those of you who have your addictions close at hand... mine is oblivious to my total infatuation of him. :'(

emily23 BRONZE said...
on Nov. 3 2009 at 11:02 am
emily23 BRONZE, Solon, Maine
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Favorite Quote:
Every story has an end, but in life every end is just a new beginning.

unfortunately this is how i feel about my boyfriend im almost failing all of my classes because I can't stop thinking about him! He's so...... addicting

tgir85 GOLD said...
on Oct. 24 2009 at 10:13 pm
tgir85 GOLD, Katy, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"I only put you through that test to see if you would keep the faith or give up..."

OMG!!!! this is SOOO good it really describes how i feel right now!! awesomenes!! check out my work(In progress)??? ^^