I don't remember my name. I can only remember a name that I know is belongs to something evil. This evil thing is all that fills my mind. It's all that I can think about now. The constant pressure of this evil is driving me to insanity.
The name that calls to me and fills my mind is Ragnorak. He is the one responsible for taking my sanity. He calls out to me non-stop 24 hours a day. He calls out when I'm having fun, playing football, hanging out with friends, or anything I do when I try to forget and ignore him. He calls out in my sleep too. He invades my dreams too. He shows me what happens when I lose control. He shows me the horrible things he has done.
The things he has done is unspeakable. He not only kills people, he tortures them first. He likes to show people the amount of damage the human body can endure. The result of which is always gruesome. It doesn’t help that he is using my body to do so, and he shows that in the nightmares. He shows me my demented twisted body. He lets me hear the raspy, deep dark evil voice leaving my lips. Saying things that are too wicked to comprehend. 
The worst part about it all is that I know he can strike at anytime. He can come out at anytime. The only thing I can do to prevent his wrath is keep my will power high. I have to do everything I can to keep this menace from gaining control over my body and mind. He has the most control over me in my sleep when he shows me the terrors. He knows what makes me break.
What makes me break is when he shows me the death of my closest friends. He prolongs the memory. He shows me what he made me do. He shows me the bloody mess of what was left of my friend. Whenever he shows me this I crack. I lose all control. He uses this one trick to take control of me. He uses this to remind me how hopeless it is to try to control a demon. How hopeless it is to try to repress the darkness.  
When he takes over my body it's like I'm sleeping. I mean actually sleeping. No nightmares, no images of dead people, just sleep. It's actually refreshing. To have a good nights sleep after years of mental tension. To wake up without screaming. To wake up and not fear anything. To legitimately forget about your problems. To know what it feels like to finally be "free".  To feel how I feel know.